I have had a few friends ask if I was doing ok after reading a few social media posts that were not consistent my norm.
I am fine but I am so many other things.
I am disappointed that it took me watching a horrific video of George Floyd being murdered by a white police officer to sit with and acknowledge my complicity in racism.
I am dismayed by my silence.
I am guilty of reading articles and watching news clips of Breonna Taylor, Trayvon Martin, Eric Garner, Tamir Rice, and so many other people of color being murdered and disregarding it all.
I am overwhelmed by the amount of police brutality and rampant racism in our society.
I am shocked that it took me this long to realize just because I believe something it doesn’t mean my kids know it, will emulate it or will better it.
I am unceasingly disgusted that my country chose a racist, homophobic, misogynistic, narcissist as our leader.
I am appalled, and am angry that I continue to be appalled, that our President is taking our rights away each and every day he sits in office.
I am tired, tired of the divisiveness of our country. This us vs them mentality that has been so staggeringly, blatantly apparent these past few years and now even more so with Covid-19 threatening our health, safety, and livelihoods.
I am quiet right now because I am taking it all in….the good, the bad, the ugly….taking it in and trying to figure out what to do with it all.
So yes, I am fine but I am so many other things.